To retain a sense of self

I‘m speechless, often, with you

And I force myself to not be

And it never does me justice

I betray the things I should say

Because only when unspoken

Do these words convey it truly

I have never said the right thing

When I told you what I‘m thinking

And I often blame the timezones

Or the business that I go through

To not tell you how I‘m feeling

Not to hurt you or disown you

With my sad, possessive nature

and the melodies it comes with

when I call upon obsessions

to retain a sense of self